My Crazy Life

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11/21/09 06:24 pm - [info]emeraldeyes01 (my other user name that I use more then this one) - this week
This week has been the crappiest week. I FAILED as in literally FAILED a quiz in the easiest class every because I missed 2 classes for flu and nobody could give me the notes.... I didn't do so well on a test that I took... I'm on my months cycle.... Peter's phone quit working... might be being replaced at work... failed another quiz in another class.... I couldn't identify pines spruces and firs to save my life in Woody Plant Material class.... uggh... I think my brakes might be going out... I possibly have a stress fracture in my left foot.

On the happy side of things though, i won a raffle that I spent $5 for a complete spa treatment valued at $150 at a spa that I go to for my massage therapist who's working on trying to correct my scoliosis or however it's spelled... anyway, it's pretty awesome it's like a total body makeover (without plastic surgery of course).

At least next week is a short work, can't do too much damage....

11/8/09 12:44 pm - [info]emeraldeyes01
Ok, so of all the luck, I got the regular flu, and today has been the first day that I've really felt like a decent human being rather then an invalid who can't do anything.... yay.... not really.... had to miss belly dance for 2 weeks in a row, that sucks so bad!

I bought my wedding dress about a month ago, and now that I have a little bit of money I'm going to get the alterations done. I got my dress for $490 at a local bridal shop. I am still not sure if I'm goig to do a viel or not because I really don't like stuff touching me... for some reason veils really bother me, like a "oh good heavens it's touching me!" kinda way.

School is going well. I'm just glad we're half way through the semester. Midterms are done! And there was much rejoicing in the land! Work however, has been rough because we just don't have very many people who stop by and want a cell phone these days, in fact we don't have many people stop by the store, let alone our little cell phone kiosk.

Sorry I haven't been blogging, but I really haven't had much time to do anything. So here's the skinny:

Lost my scholarship, no big suprise there was no way I could pull a 4.0 out even if my life depended on it, however, I am off academic probation, and should be on my way to a successful semester come fall.

I'm working 2 jobs, one for Logan City Parks and Rec. and one for Sam's club Kiosk (which is an affiliate of Radio Shack, not Sam's Club) so basically I am working 60+ hours a week, 40 of it being an outdoor job that's manual labor, and 20+ being indoors on my feet the entire time.

Belly dancing season went very well! I'm so happy with how our performance on Friday went!!! I also have professional belly dance pictures that were taken about 3- 4 weeks ago that I'm trying to narrow down to just a few that I want, but I'm having a really hard time decided because they're all so beautiful.

My little turtle Sam is doing well, I bought a 50 gallon aquarium for him for $60 but unfortunately my new place that I am living won't let me have anything above a 25 gallon aquarium due to them being worried about the tank bursting a leak or something.

My fiancee is still trying to decide which school he wants to go to, and I really wish he'd make up his **** mind about the whole thing cause this routine is getting on my nerves. Good crap, it's been almost 3 years of being engaged. I started to pick a date in August to get married.... and then he sprung it on me that he decided he was going to go to school and that we should wait to get married. Good crap, how much longer does he htink I am willing to put my life on hold for him. I miss him all the time like crazy living so far away really sucks. He finally found a job as an audio visual person for the Davis Conference Center, but it's VERY part time like maybe 10-20 hours a week. Yeah.... I love him, I really do, but at some point, enough is enough. He promised me like a year ago that we'd be married within a year, yeah, well.... what...???? anyway, enough on that subject, talking about it just makes me ticked off....

I am lonely a lot, and it really sucks because all of my friends that were up here in Logan have moved away. I really miss having friends :( I am having a hard time making friends too because I work 2 jobs. Am I that antisocial that I just don't have any friends? *sigh*

so there you have it in a nut shell.... from a nut.... :)

Ok, I found an article on a proposal that was going to be that whole "slip the ring in the drink and she'll find it" sort of thing, and well... she didn't find it, instead she ate it! http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/29462344/?GT1=43001 That's the article, I got a good laugh, that's pretty funny. Talk about a proposal not to forget!

Ok, so I have been a little MIA since December... Life got busy...

I have a turtle now, and he's so adorable! He begs me for food. I love him. My family met him on Saturday and loved him. They all think he's so cute. He found a way to escape a couple of weeks ago though, and I had to get a lid. He's been trying ever since to get out. I can see the cogs in his little head turning. He's got lots of personality. He's so cute. The only down side is that he pushes rocks around at 4 AM in the morning and wakes me up because he has a bare bottom glass tank with no gravel cause red eared sliders will eat the gravel...

I've been SUPER busy with belly dancing. My new troupe started practicing together in January so I have dance practice twice a week now. We're going to look so AWESOME! I'm so excited! I can't wait for Springfest, it's going to be so AWESOME with our ISIS wings! They're so pretty!

So that's pretty much it in a nutshell.

So for my dad's b-day i decided to try my hand at making Roast Duck... yeah... sounds goood and yummy... but the duck is supposed to be in the oven right now, and it's still thawing in the sink because it was still frozen when I took it out of the fridge about 2 hours ago. Hopefully it's thawed enough that i can cook it by the time my dad gets home so that we can eat it for dinner. If we end up not being able to have it done by dinner, i think we'll have to have the duck tommorow. I hope that this year brings about a better year, but somehow, I have a feeling it will be much of the same crap that last year was. Oh well, everyday is still a gift. Watch Kung Fu Panda last night, that's a GREAT movie! seriously! I was expecting it to be kind of dumb, and it wasn't! anyway, gonna go check the duck. I'll let ya'll know how it turns out.

Ok, so Peters dad is in some serious needs of prayers. He just had surgery on Thursday to remove a tumor about the size of a baseball. They're pretty sure that they got it all, but there's not telling for 100% for another couple of weeks. They had to go in on the side of his head starting about his ear and went down to almost his shoulder. He's responded well the surgery and they're pretty sure they got everything. He's devolped a yeast infection in his mouth that's been a bit painful for him. i'm really and truly hoping that they really did get all of the cancer. They had to take part of his gugular vein and some lymph nodes from his back. He's recovering now, and the doctors say that things look pretty good, but I gotta say, his health is not good to begin with. He has a kidney transplant which is why his immune system is bad to begin with. So far the prognosis is good. We'll wait and see what the doctor says. Anyway, keep him in your prayers.

http://www.nraila.org/GrassrootsAlerts/read.aspx
http://washingtontimes.com/news/2008/oct/30/obama-and-guns/
http://www.greenbaypressgazette.com/article/20081031/GPG0603/810310751/1271/GPG06
For those who don't know what a "semi-automatic" gun is, http://www.nraila.org/Issues/FactSheets/Read.aspx?id=238
Also realize that semi-automatic just means that a gun can be fired in one trigger action, aka a revolver takes two making it not a semi-automatic (the hammer has to go back and then forward to hit the primer on a revolver) and a 9mm only takes one making it a semi-automatic( there's not a hammer that has to back because the round is already chambered)
Obama does not want people to even own defensive semi-automatic guns??? and yet is still supporting the 2nd amendment??? That doesn't work in my head.
And remember people, guns don't kill people! PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE!
Please read that all to understand where I'm coming from on the gun rights issue! This is an important issue because once we have taken the guns away, the only people who will have guns are the criminals. Our founding fathers knew that, so don't let that right be taken away!

So it's like what, 6 months after all the drama occured...? something like that? well, for those of you in suspense wondering if we're still together, yes, we are. I think we're doing better then ever, the counseling sessions really helped. you know, it's funny how much of our lives are about communicating well with others. Especially in a relationship. I have another friend who, thank heavens is moving, who decided to put the blame on me for his divorce. Because some how it was my fault because I was having relationship problems that I didn't even see, that he ended up seperating from his wife. Good one. Who needs friends when you have friends who will turn around and blame you for the bad stuff in thier life, even though he was part of the problem. Anyway, enough about the friend who became more of a problem then he is worth...

Peter and I went through counseling and it was very good for us. I think we're now stronger then we've ever been, even though being apart really freaking sucks. We talk more effectively now, even if we don't say much, at least we've started to change how we think about what the other person is responding with. We're going to go back packing in a few weeks with some friends of ours. I'm looking forward to it. Neither of us has money, which sucks, but we still make the most of our time together. I miss himm so much up here. I don't have that many friends up here, and the ones I do are always busy. *sigh* it's all good. So there ya go, now the suspense can end.

the photo was a bunch of candles lined up in a church I think.

I looked over at all the candles placed at the make shift memorial. It was almost touching that people actually cared about me. It was creepy looking at your own memorial. It's like reading your own tombstone. it was kinda beautiful though, in that surreal sort of way. If only things had been different. I was still in my body, which was lying behind the door in front of all these candles, but I could project out to see what was going on outside my body. It's weird being magical because it's not what you expect at all. you expect this rush of power, and that it will feel completely natural. Magic never does feel completely natural, and yet it's an extension of you. Looking at candles that are a memorial to yourself is one of those things that's not at all what you expect it to feel like. Because you know your body is still locked away and frozen, but your mind is free to wander the earth like a ghost. Candles are all that people could come up with on short notice after finding out I had died. Well, what they didn't really know is that i didn't really die, but was in suspended animation. I had a building site already plotted out with my mentor who will have it undertaken. He knows the secret, he is the one who helped me figure it out. Interesting how much candles can tell you though. They symbolize so many things. Death, rebirth, renewal, and purity.

Guess what?! I hit goal at 155 lbs I started at 206 lbs. I'm so excited to have lost the weight! YAY GOAL!!! You can do it! If I can do it, anybody can do it! I started in September. HOnestly, I didn't think I would EVER get down this low in weight! I'm so excited! I'm into a size 10, almost size 8! YAY!!! I just had to share!

So I decided since lately I only really write in my livejournal when I write to a journal that I would save all of the entries I have made, run them off on paper, and then put them inside my real journal. It's an interesting thought anyway. Because I really should be keeping a journal, like a real journal... in case the information crashes, currupts, or other horrible things that have been known to happen.

So I found an article on a turtle that turned up in Vietnam that was previously thought to be extinct, and I then was curious about endangered turtle species and found several disturbing articles about turtles being traded specifically in China and Asia for food and being used in traditional medicines! Then I was even more shocked to find out from the US department of Fish and Wildlife that there are almost 50 species of turtles in the US alone who are endangered. Then I got to reading a little more, and almost all of the worlds turtle population are on a severe decline, and a vast majority of them are several endanger of becoming extinct, especially if nothing is done to help save them! Sadness! People are so concerned with how to be more "green" and yet the worlds population of turtles is in even more danger then we are from global warming! Sadness! SAVE THE TURTLES. I would donate to this foundation but I don't have any money right now. I'll post a link to the save the turtle foundation. https://secure.worldwildlife.org/ogc/ogcAC_speciesDetail.cfm?gid=1&sc=AWY0800WC900 also if you go to www.worldwildlife.org/turtles you can find some more info about the turtles. Anyway, poor turtles, they need our help!

So my foot is telling me, rather loudly and extremely painfully, that we have one heck of a storm on the way! I broke my foot when I was 16, and never went to a doctor because my parents both told me the docotrs couldn't do anything for it becfause it was just sprained... yeah... well... I have had it xrayed since then (incident at work that was not good) and the doctor said it looked like it had been broken before, but was not broken now. So basically the only way to fiz the problem is to have my foot rebroken and have surgery... anyway, in general it does really well. When the weather changed however, especially before a storm, it hurts excruciatingly. Not really sure why it does this, but it does. Just thought I'd complain about it. It's the outside bone of my foot. I broke it close to where it joins the ankle bones. Ow it hurts.

HAPPY B-DAY to me! I'm 22 today. Yay! It's my b-day! an excuse to get a really cool shirt and Peter gave me a nintendo DS with a horse simulator game! He won't have the DS until tommorow, but at least I do have that. Sweet! I love getting free gifts.

So I've decided that in celebration of my new found weight loss ( Read more... )

I HATE VALENTINES! ( Read more... )

white:
purity
peace
eternity
sanctuary
clean
new
purified
weddings
serenity
new beginnings
hope
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This place is torture. It's dark, no light. Days could pass, and I'd never know. My powers are being leached from with these stupid shackles they have my arms suspended with. This stupid cell they have me in reminds me of being stuck in one of those "bubbles" that "bubble people" live in, only much worse, because you can't see out the bubble, but ou can hear all the screams of people. The sounds of the few living who are actually down here. I would break out, but I have lost my will to fight. I tried at first to escape. I charmed the guard who brought me food. He never did take my shackles off, but he did let me go on walks, if only to get my muscles moving again. This place was dark. Darker then any place I'd ever been. This place was ahrd. I was kept in these shackles that zapped enough power that any attempt from me to escape was stopped as soon as i started using my powers. My powers still kept me from aging, but I couldn't use them actively. They took me once a week to bathe, putting me in a room that worked just like these shackles, and I didn't get to bathe alone. The guards watched and sneered. The water was cold. This place was the darkest torture I've ever known. Every once in a while, I'd be disciplined for trying to get out they wiped my back, and then rubbed the open wounds with a sticky acidic fruit juice that burned when it his the raw and bleeding skin. I was made to watch such horrors done to other people as well. You can not imagine what it's like in that place. You start getting desperate for something to hang on to. The only thing that kept me going was the memory of my little Mosharue. No one knew who she was really, but I had been her "surrogate" mother when I came to Evarine and learned about my powers. I had been imprisoned here before, though no one knew then that I was who I am, they thought I was just a pretty servant. No power stealing shackles that time. What a wonderful thing that stay had been compared to this one. This time, I was enduring the torture that I had been ment to suffer the first time. Malisipher was trying to break me. He figures if I break, he will be able to train me to do his will. I just want to use my powers to free me from this place. That is the torture I will remember, that dark place that I will never forget.

Just heard on the news that President Hinkley of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (for those of you who read my journal who don't know I'm Mormon...) died about 7 PM tonight. I'm like... I don't know... wow...